Does it ever end?
I’m tired of the inner turmoil
I’m tired of being anxious
the rollercoaster ride of emotions
swirling and churning within
old scars reopen
past nightmares haunt
doubt invades, fear paralyses
silent screams that noone hears
I keep building my wall
uninviting, tall and proud
but the facade is brittle
weathered by the years
I’m lost in despair
unsure of who I am
uncertain of how to change
afraid of the road ahead
I am tired of being me
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Beautiful! Loved the ending! 😍
P. S. Would you like to be a part of the second round of Hoppy Tales?
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Thanks! Sure, I’ll participate again.
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Great that you can express you feelings in poetry. Just remember, depression lies. It’s lied to me a lot. Also remember that you are not alone.
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It’ll pass, I know it will. Just working on getting my mindset to be happier. Thanks.
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You are strong.
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Not always but thank you for your support.
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All I can say is that you aren’t alone in this, dear friend. Real Struggle, very well expressed in your piece and is very frequently visited by a lot of us.
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It’s a struggle that weighs me down from time to time and I wish I had the inner strength to overcome. Thanks for your support and kind words.
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It’s very hard and consuming. Hugs and strength to you my friend. ❤️
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Indeed but we trudge along because our families need us and the wheel stops for no one. Thanks Pallavi.
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True but please take care of yourself too. ❤️ hugs..
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So sorry you are struggling, but I’m glad you have this space to express how you feel! This too shall pass!
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Thanks Patrice. This blog is my journal and because of all the supportive people in this community, I feel safe to share. It will pass! (Thanks for the reminder)
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This is so vulnerable. Thank you for writing such beautiful words to relate to and know we are not alone, because I think so many of us struggle with these feelings ❤️
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Thank you, Jenny. They were words that poured from my heart and needed to come out. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone in my struggles. 🤗
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I’ve always thought I was. But being someone else is kind of scary too…
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Very true.
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This is beautiful, and anxiety is a nasty beast. You are not alone in your struggle. It visits me daily as well. Thinking of you 😉 You’re a strong one!
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I don’t feel very strong but thank-you 🤗
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the strongest ones don’t “feel” strong but keep going anyways 🙂 I understand, oh do I understand
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I guess we keep going, one foot in front of the other.
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